Breathe on Me
Lord, I ask you to bring to life some of
the insecurities that I am dealing with to my attention.
Perfectionist
I had developed this sense of having to do
everything in life to 100%. You may be sitting there going I wish I had that
mind set or that actually does not sound like such a bad thing to develop. Well……to
be honest with you, what I have developed is a sense of having to do everything
to a 100% and if it does not meet my standard, then I have not only failed
myself, but those around me. This is a dangerous
habit to develop because it becomes a breeding ground for stress, tension,
late nights, and anxiety over what will happen if I do not succeed. This
particular habit has been drilled into my head through many different paths
that I have taken in life through travel fast-pitch softball, film/theater
acting, being a perfect friend, being the Christian example to others, and has
especially impacted my college career.
I
had the mentality that I had to receive an “A” on everything academically that I completed or I had failed (in
my mind). I had to sit myself down after the first month and a half of my
senior year and seek after Christ for peace and for Him to slow me down, so I
may enjoy the last year that I spend practically every day with such Godly
friends from all across the United States at one university. I began to develop
a sense of “free spiritedness” I never
felt more free during a time in college then I had the past semester. I was
able to even enjoy the time I spent at the library with friends studying. I was
no longer tension filled, Christ stepped
in when I called upon His name for calmness during my storm.
(Psalms 50:15) Call upon Me in the day of
trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me.
(Psalms 145:18-19) The LORD is near to all
who call upon Him, to all who call upon Him in truth. {19} He will fulfill the
desire of those who fear Him; He also will hear their cry and save them.
Are you an Authentic Requester?
Christ looks to our hearts and sees the
need that we are requesting of Him. He looks to the authenticity of the
requester. When we humble ourselves before the throne of God we are able to run
to Him, with blind eyes, knowing that He will catch us if we should fall. We
should not make requests to Him if we are not willing to allow His work be done
in our life and not giving our selfish desires up for His Heavenly plan. This
concept at first is a scary one to grasp. Think, why should we expect Him to do
things for us, if we are not willing to simply breathe life into our lungs and
use us as a force for His kingdom? Live and breathe the words that you proclaim
to be. Christ wants your vulnerability so He may sculpt you into what He has
encompassed for you.
Practice Makes…..not Perfect, but
Obedient!
Practicing to let yourself be consumed by
Christ’s plan will be an act of obedience towards Him. Practice daily devotion
of time spent with Christ. Though we must also keep in mind that this does not mean to not try our hardest in everything that we do, this just means that
sometimes we will not meet our expectations and it is okay! Even though we may
fall short of our goals, we can become empowered by the Holy Spirit and know that
He is eternal and that our failures are only a bump in the road. Remember
practice makes NOT perfect, but obedient.
(1 Chronicles 16:8) Oh give thanks to the
LORD, call upon His name; Make known His deeds among the peoples.
(Job 27:10) Will he take delight in the
Almighty? Will he call on God at all times?
